The plan
was to move to Utah
Oregon had
crumbled
As the
logging industry fell
We had
tried to endure
But dad’s
jobs had faltered as well
From
recent grad landing a BLM contract
To
a well-paid corporate trainer
To pump
jockey at the corner gas station
So we
bolted for Zion on possibilities
A
professor gig at the U of U
Holed up
in Dan and Kathy’s basement
While all
the avenues were exhausted
Hanging
with the cousins
It was a
summer of tacos and rhubarb pie
And visits
to the cabin in Flaming Gorge
By fall we
were looking at a house
With a
huge basement
And my own room
I started
in my new school
With the
big 64 Crayon box
Grasped in
my grubby 4th grade mitts
I was
settling into life in Sandy
Caught up
in the conspiratorial rumors
That the cafeteria
fish served on Tuesdays
Were caught
in the drainage ditch
Adjacent to
the school parking lot
The day everything
changed
I was distractedly daydreaming
Waiting to
be picked up
Deep in
thought about pond fish
When my
dad pulls up in the Silver Streak
My Uncle
Dan’s project car of indeterminate origins
I jumped
in the back, my first ride in the car
“How was
school?”
I probably said it was good
“We’re
going to Arizona, son.”
“For a vacation?”
“We’re
moving there.”
“When?
“Right
now. Mom’s packing the car.
I already
packed the moving van.”
“But
I left my crayons . . . “
“Sorry . .
. we’ll get you some in Arizona.”
But, you
see, it was a new box
With the
sharpener in the back
And I hadn’t
been able to use it
Hadn’t
gotten to fully explore
I had plans
for those crayons
Even
for the most useless color
You
know, the white one
I was
distracted, perplexed
No one had
discussed this with me
By that
night we were already on the road
As the
miles rolled I gradually recovered
By the
time I was peeking into the Grand Canyon
I was looking
forward instead of back
The
crayons stayed behind us too
I’d pine for them occasionally
More for dramatic
effect
Than
for any real resentment
When my
dad passed away I was 30
Still waiting on the crayons
Willing to
trade them for his return
Last
summer my mother showed up to visit
She even
brought gifts
I had by
now turned 41
I guess I was finally old enough now
To handle
the responsibility
Originally entrusted when I was 10
As I unwrapped
the paper
I found my long absent crayons
Replaced, restored, requited
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